Love Letter (S1 Ep.17-14)

Dear Rose,

I know you have been looking for me and every time you did it I was a second away, without having the courage to take a step forward. Fearing to endanger all the way you have so far travelled.

Life has, sometimes, a strange way to follow its course. As much misunderstood it can be, as much it may hurt you, it is a gift, a privilege that not all time seems to take its value.

In this life, our path crossed more than once. For the first time, we spoke you were looking for answers, at the mausoleum of my ascendants... Despite the embarrassment of the whole situation, you had a captivating shine in your eyes, a strength that you not always recognize. Since that day I had the desire to see you again. Every time you approached, I felt your presence and, knowing that you won't recognize me, I stopped myself, waiting for you to forward. Then, I saw you to the image of my sweet Anastacia. Day after day the resemblance between you attract me, keeping the hope that it will be possible for her to be back, but my little Rose, you weren't Anastacia and so I diverted my way, to not let myself be fooled. However, every time I avoided to cross our way a little more I learned about you. So I gave me the opportunity to meet you.

I followed you every day and every night at the Summer Festival. On the last day you were, once again, admiring the concert for you alone, you were so tired of an intense week of work, but firmly supporting your friends. I was afraid, however, felt the need to protect you and so I did it... An unfortunate incident led Joan to feel the same and the only possible way, she saw, to ensure your safety was by erasing your memory of the events. I know how much she hurt you with this doing, you should have the opportunity to choose, had the right to a justification. Please try to understand her side, when you know the things that Joan knows, when you saw the things she saw and you have the feeling of impotence to blame you, you try everything so that this situation does not repeat itself. Not for you, because somehow you survived, but by those who have not, by those who the gift of living was stolen too early.

Although the sweet memories that I keep are not shared, I loved every moment, every minute, without regrets. You made me feel alive again, part of a family and for that, I thank you with all my heart.

I assume you've questions yearning for answers, as I had the first time I saw you. Have in mind there is nothing that time does not answer, even when the wait seems to catch the never.

You have a heart of gold, don't let it break. Live your life filling every moment with joy, with compassion, with respect to the next and to the unknown and you’ll see that nothing will be denied to you. Don't lose your love for this privilege, for the wonderful job you're starting, for your family and your friends, no matter how painful that obstacle can be, with the strength and support of loved ones, you will rise again.

And if the pain is too much and you want to give in, don't forget, I'll be a second away, I will be there to support you. I will keep the promise I made to you on Christmas Eve, but now a second is as close as I can be.

I hope one day you can understand my absence, but if that day doesn't come I want you to know that I did it to protect you. I will always protect you.

With Love, Mikhael

End of the 17^th Episode – We can make it