The Fashion Show (S1 Ep2-12)

I still so nervous!

With the introduction of Johana, one by one, the girls were coming out within the space of time schedule. I looked at the catwalk, hidden between the curtains that separated our backstage from the stage and suddenly I felt something strange. I was wishing to go up on that stage, wishing I was the one there, having fun as I felt they were enjoying every step, every gesture, every smile full of life and joy. Gradually I loosened the anxiety, for a moment, I forget that soon would be my time to walk on by.

This feeling was amazing! The fashion show was to be a fantastic experience. On their return to the backstage, I helped the girls in the change of visual and with each re-entry I peek their first steps. I couldn't be more proud to see the reactions, the applause, the affection of those who watched... But when it came to my turn to go on stage it was like reality set in, the dream was no longer a dream, I felt in control and now I was so very, very nervous, almost paralyzed.

I went to the bathroom to get a wet towel and just kept repeating to myself what Joan said - "everything will be all right, everything will be all right" - while I passed it through my neck, that helped me regain control. - "Just do like you picture it. Relax, do the catwalk and have fun".

Dianne: Rose! Come on, we're ready for the final entrance.

Rose: I’ll be right there, Dianne!

Joan: We going out to the stage, you have one minute to join us.

Rose: Okay! Go on I’ll be right out. - My voice was breathless, anxious. For a moment I felt that there was still a presence in the room and I peeked. - Hello? Girls?! The nerves were leading me to delirium. Calm down, come on!

I looked in the mirror one last time, took a deep breath and leave the bathroom towards the stage. Before going through the curtains, still afraid I stopped for a few seconds and that's when I noticed a mask in the table, I don't know how it had ended up there, but when I touch it I felt safe, confident. Then I realized, Joan, of course... I picked up the mask and put it on, it was like if I become the girl of my dreams. I felt like I had hoped. I walk across the stage, waving and thanking the affection. I even threw a kiss before I turn back to the backstage.