By the sea (S1 Ep.6-7)

I tried to resist, as much as I could, I didn't want to look back. But before I step down to the stair I could not help it. He wasn't looking, I felt a tightness in the chest and a sadness that I couldn't explain at that time. "Why does it hurt? He is just a stranger, he doesn't mean anything to me… As I represent nothing to him!"

He was putting some gloves, maybe for gardening, without look away for one second only… And then I realized. "To help with the flowers", with that thought I freed a smile as I recall his words. Who is this strange and so generous man!?

Rose e Kat

After leaving the land of Joan's grandmother, I followed home. With the memory of Seth and the relive of every moment of the morning I cleaned the wounds caused by the bushes, took a shower and changed clothes.

When I sat down to start working in the flyers I had no inspiration for it. I couldn't focus, I had a lot of questions wandering in mind. How was it possible for Joan disappear!? Who was that stranger who gave me such a charm that made me even forgot I saw Joan enter in the Mausoleum, but I didn't saw her getting out!? Such was my concern, that I couldn't stay at home.

The hidden desire to see Seth took me outside, I went into town and just spent some time walking by some of its main streets. His image was chasing my thoughts and encouraged my curiosity to meet him. Oh, how I wanted to be his Rebecca and cause that glow of passion and love. How I wanted to clean the pain of his eyes. Embrace him, soothing him with the confidence that I would be there for him, that I would do the impossible to not cause such suffering.

The more I remembered that moment more his face and his voice sounded familiar. Not being able to have a clear notion, the strange sensation of had seen him before, urged the question "where?". Would he be Joan's relative? Maybe... It might have been on her birthday that I would have seen him before. In her party were present many unknown faces. Was he one of them?

His eyes, his sweet eyes... Would be this that I was feeling love at first sight? No, it was not possible. He was much older and had a companion, Rebecca. I believe in true love. I believe that love is more than an illusion, more than just a desire, love exists when reciprocated. And as he found his, I would find mine. That was my thought. But what my heart felt and what my head thought were two totally different realities. In the meantime, dream about it was all I had left.

Sitting by the sea, I let my mind fly. Pictured his face, keeping the hope that he would pass along that way. Fantasized about the feel of his arms involving me in a gesture of kindness. How could anyone penetrate so much in my soul? With just a look left his mark on me, a wish that dominated my movements and my own will.

A feeling that wasn’t something totally strange. Seth invaded my thought as when I'm working in my pieces. I know it may seem like a ridiculous comparison, but whenever I idealise something I want to do, the desire to shape it, create it, dominates my mind, leading me to another world and when I saw Seth's face was this feeling that I felt, as if for a moment we were both in another world. Living another life, our by destination.