Give me an answer (S1 Ep.13-7)

The class started and, with Joan beside me, my embarrassment was notorious. "I'm not like this, I shouldn't have let my actions be influenced. After class, I’ll apologize to her." I was ashamed by my attitude, though my words were originated by hurt. Now was the time to listen to the heart, Joan deserves an apology and that's what I'm going to do.

The ring bell sounded, felt butterflies taking over my stomach, took a deep breath and followed behind Joan.

Rose: Joan, wait! May I talk to you for a moment?

Joan: Of course!

Rose: Sorry for my earlier attitude and for the words of the other day…

Joan: I appreciate. It's okay, don't worry.

Rose: No, it's not okay! What's going on with us?! We used to tell each other everything and now it looks like there are only secrets between us.

Joan: There are burdens too heavy to put on the shoulders of another. I do not have the right to do it.

Rose: I know! I know what you mean, but there is nothing we can't overcome together. Open up to me, trust me, I help you carry it.

Joan: Sorry, but I can't. I don't have the right to put your life in danger. It's too soon, I fear that the past will repeat itself…

Rose: I know you think you know what's best for me, but there's no lie worth an apology and not telling is as bad as lying.

Joan: Rose…

To every step a little more of him appeared, my heart was pumping so fast as I saw Mikhael coming downstairs.

Rose: And he!? How does he fit into this whole story?

Joan: I…

Rose: Forget ... You can't tell, I already know it. - The more Mikhael neared, my heart was beating faster, my legs were shaking. My heart for he wanted to run, but my thoughts pushed me away and before I turn my back to distance myself, I added. - I sincerely hope you accept my apology. And… - Looked briefly to Mikhael and return to Joan. - When you're ready to talk you know where to find me. - In my words were a message to him, that I knew it wouldn't be heard, yet the hope of having him around was consuming me.