Relive that moment again and again (S1 Ep.12-8)

The pain was completely visible on their faces. They love the band, love being up on the stage, love to share, as Dianne says, the best of them with who watches.

When we do volunteering they always take their instruments, there is always a time for music. In their words "to see the smiles on their faces is priceless". For them, compose, play, sing is their essence, is the air they breathe. And they weren't going to let die the hope that Sofie's mother went back on her decision.

Sometimes it is hard to see both sides of the coin because we do not always pay attention to what's really going on around us. We get so caught up in our reality, we didn't realize that every action has a reaction, that every decision has a consequence and its responsibility is assigned to the act practised.

Sofie's mother found the girls lying on the ground, inanimate. I can only imagine the grief at what happened with the idea of losing them at that moment. And not have an explanation, live in uncertainty that that moment would repeat was agonizing.

The conviction that Joan was involved was increasingly strong. What other explanation would have? How to explain that what happened was really magic?

Had the thought filled, was too much happening at the same time. I could not concentrate at work in front of me. The week was almost at the end and didn't have much more in advance nor in the pieces, nor in the plan.

In a way, I related to the pain that the girls were feeling. Lose the sweet memory of Mikhael made my chest hurt so much at every inspiration, the air seemed scarce in my lungs and the rarer was as I pulled. Try to forget, the mere idea of this being the only possible answer to my grief increased my pain.

Then, I sat down in the living room with my sketchbook in hands and while the Kat slept beside me, I left the pencil cover sheet after sheet with more ideas to remodelling my bedroom.

Needed to find peace inside of me, but I couldn't help but relive, these recent events, over and over again. If I found out what really happened to Elizabeth could perhaps understand their actions, maybe his face won't take traces that scare me, maybe ... I have to find Francis, he's like Joan, he can give me the answers to the questions she doesn't want to answer!