Going home (S1 Ep.17-4)

The drive home was long, I took the time to put writing up to date, there was so much I wanted to register.

 “Dear diary,

This weekend so much happened. We have the photos to the catalogue set. We had a confession from Joan and another from Monic. And in the middle of everything, there is one word that does not come out of my mind... Mikhael.

Tomorrow is the first day of school of this period and he will be there. I hope to find the strength that I need to be in his presence. It's a little strange, just thinking about how it will be, I get this unusual feeling, hard to explain. It's like I’m nervous, I feel this adrenaline speed up my heart, but at the same time, my whole body seems calm, with a peace of mind to think of him, as if he was my safe haven. Something inside me tells me that I need to find him, tells me that with him I'm safe."

I thought Joan was resting, but when mother stopped at the gas station she awakened.

Joan: Are you drawing the new collection?

Rose: No, I was writing ... I want to keep my memories in writing.

Joan: I regret all this, I really do Rose. Please remember, there's nothing I wouldn't do to protect you. It is my obligation.

Rose: You should know that lying is never the way.

Joan: Do you think this is a truth easy to be told? At the moment that I recognized me as what I was, my instinct was to share with all of you. But my memories didn't let me, I saw what happened and I feared it repeated itself and I still do.

Rose: Well, what's done is done. Not worth crying over spilt milk. And please don't forget, when you keep piling lies, eventually they will fall on you. Hurt ... As hard as it is, the truth deserves a chance. We're friends, damn it. How do you think I feel? I'm hurt, was not the first time you did this and I suspect it won't be the last. How can I trust you?

Joan: I'm sorry, I didn't know...

Rose: Didn't you know what? I kept a diary? And that I probably would write about him?

Joan: No, not that! I know you had a diary. You were in pain, in distress I did what I needed without considering the consequences.

Rose: Well, I'm much happier now, as you can see.

Joan: I know you're not. And, frankly, I hope you can forgive me. I promise you I’ll never use my magic to compel you again.

Rose: And I promise you that whatever happens, I won't put my life in danger. I won't let anything happen to the girls. You can be certain of that!

Joan felt the strength in my voice, felt the strength and confidence of Anastacia...