Be myself (S1 Ep.18-7)

Monday, February 17

Today I woke up with a feeling of great lightness. I fell asleep entangled in my thoughts about the old factory of handmade toys, I dreamt about its remodelling, the working space, the warehouse space, the leisure space for small moments of relaxation, the dining space, the parking lot, the garden... Had a clear idea of what we could create on the factory building, but I had to pass it on to the paper. And during breakfast, I did so, small sketches that portrayed my dream.

I felt positive, able to achieve the impossible. Start the day with this inspiration felt really good. Prepared me for the day that expected me, despite a minor setback…

After breakfast I met Joan in the volleyball training and what seemed like a normal morning, as soon we step on the school entrance became a movement of compliments, questions, congratulations, requests for tickets to the fashion show... Around us more and more people were appearing from everywhere, my whole body was shaking. By my thinking – "The whole school already know!" - Suddenly a message from Diane.

From Dianne: Meet us in the library!

Joan: Message from Dianne. Let's go to the library. – Joan was calm, smiling thanked, gave directions to the brand site, while I was completely frozen at the sight of so many people, my heart felt like it was going to get out of my chest, the words didn't come out, my breathing was running so fast and for that I saw myself answering, my body didn't respond. - Come on, move! - Grabbed me by the arm and pulled me, but I couldn't move.

Richard: I help! It's okay Rose... - Put his left arm behind my back and his right hand on my right hand. - One step at a time. I'm right here, won't let you fall. - And with the help of Richard followed, then, for the school library.

Dianne: Are you alright, Rose? What happened?

Richard: Over-eagerness. I believe that Rose just experienced a panic attack.

Monic: Are you okay?!

Rose: Yes, I don't know what came over me. I was feeling so well, suddenly I saw so many people around us, I was afraid of choking ... I couldn't control my body, it was horrible.

Richard: I'm going to get you a bottle of water. Be right back.

Rose: Thank you, Richard!

Joan: Do you know what's going on Dianne? They were asking us tickets to the fashion show!

Dianne: Earlier I talked to the person in charge of the ticket office and then I sent you a message. This morning the tickets sold out! 

Joan: All the ninety-five hundred?

Dianne: Yes! I was told that when the box office was opening, there was a line that ran through the entire block. There are no more tickets available! 

Rose: But... We did not launch the campaign. What happened?

Dianne: Yesterday, when I went by there, was a short line, Saturday was the day with the highest sales. Today when we got to school, some students have come to us, they wanted to know about the concert, about the casting for the fashion show, where they could give the name if we had tickets to offer, a number of issues. I told them that tickets for sale were available only at the gate of the Palace, to offer and more information the best place was the site of the brand. We came here because it was calmer and in the meantime, the responsible for the box office called...

Joan: The various messages that I have sent, the posters around town, the distribution of flyers in the KoffyBreak, the disclosure over the weekend, plus contests for tickets, all combined triggered the general interest. This is a reason to celebrate girls. Rose?!

Rose: I'm glad, I really am, but I'm still shaking. I, I, I thought...

 Monic: We know, you don't have to say it. 

Rose: There were so many people...

Joan: I told you we needed a bigger place than the gym for the fashion show. Last night I still had time to answer a few posts, I pointed out the KoffyBreak and olive oil Bonnet campaign to win double tickets, but, honestly, I wasn't expecting this so warm reception.

Rose: How can you be so calm, weren't you afraid?

Joan: Afraid? No, your silly. I'm like I stand, people like it or not. If you like it I'm happy, but if you don't like it, I don't have to be sad or scared.

I've come a long way since the time of the terrifying speeches to be able of standing with some confidence in front of the whole class, however, I did not have the coolness of Joan, she was so happy with the attention and affection we received upon arrival to school, so sure of herself! And maybe that's my problem, I always felt a little lost, without guidance, just in my own little world of cutting and sewing I found my real passion, a part which I recognized as myself.