15th Episode – Can this be the whole truth? (S1 Ep.15-1)

1.   Who am I?

Joan: Katarina?!

Rose: No. I'm Rose! I don’t know... I'm so confused. - Was washed in tears. - I need to know... Why he left me?

Joan: Please calm down. You're not making any sense.

Rose: No, no, no! You’ll not do that again to me. I won't be close again.

Joan: No Rose!

Rose: Chuu… Don't say anything. My head ... She is here ...

Joan: Who's here, Rose?

Rose: She's inside me. I feel her pain. She is burning, my skin is burning! He watched and did nothing. He abandoned her, she is in pain. I feel her pain. She's inside me.

Joan: I'm here... - Landed her hand on my shoulder, trying to calm me down, but her magic didn't work. The minute she tried felt a repulsion, Francis’ magic persisted. - Tell me, what happened?

Rose: I saw her life, saw her dreams, he was in all of them. I felt her. Her pain was my pain, her memories were my memories. He was part of her imagination, just like of mine. He was there and left.

Joan: Who left Rose?

Rose: He's not real ... But I know him!

Joan: Who abandoned you, Rose? What's his name? - Every mention that Joan did to my name was as if she pulled me back, the flashes seemed to began to compartmentalize, a timeline created itself.

Rose: Mikhael… He saw the fire and did nothing. She screamed for him. Continued screaming and he left, he abandoned her as a coward.

Joan was incredulous with what she had just listened. The sadness in my eyes was deep, I couldn’t see anything else. Would the past be destiny to repeat itself?!

Joan: Come with me. You need to dry before you get ill.

Rose: She wants to stay, needs answers.

Joan: Who wants to stay, Rose?

Rose: I was once called Katarina...

Joan looked at me surprised, now knew it, a cycle had started.

Joan: Why do you say that?

Rose: I remember everything! You were there, Elizabeth was there, I had another family. He was there, in all her dreams. Dreamed of a life she never had. She used to see him as I saw him, they were happy running through the gardens. Had the same dreams I had, however, felt it in a different way, had a heavy heart. And then showed me ... As in your story in her dreams, she was chased, captured and executed… Felt every moment as if she lived it when she showed me I felt it too, felt my skin burn, was unbearable. I felt a pain in my heart as if it were been crushed. She was in so much hurt… She couldn't forget his image, it was like he was present without being there. Her mind got stuck to the moment when he turned his back ... He was the last memory before she closed her eyes. Do you understand? Loving someone that much and this someone rips your heart out! -Joan knelt in front of me nodding to my question. - As I feel her, she felt Anastacia ... She didn't know him, but she loved him. Crying out his name over and over again... He never came. She couldn't live like that, I couldn't live like that. The pain was too strong. Nobody came ... I couldn't live like that… I went, then, to the cliff, I begged to God to receive me… Mikhael was there, in the clouds I saw his image, with the winds his voice told me that we would meet again… I knew then that he was no longer part of this world, the world of the living. Felt the breeze and let myself go to him. I forgave him, as I begged for your forgiveness for what I did. Hoping to rediscover him in eternal rest. But my soul got lost and never got there. He never came for me. The time faded, everything around me was nothing, a vast emptiness as what I became.