Now I know (S1 Ep.14-5)

Mrs Irya: Yes?

Rose: Good afternoon Mrs Irya, is Rose. Is Joan there?

Mrs Irya: Yes, come in.

Rose: Thank you!

The electric gate opened and, even afraid, I advanced. There was a lot I didn't know, however, Mikhael was right. We do what we think is best, based on our knowledge. When we have half-truths the perception and judgment of the situation are committed, but we have to act anyway. What are we left with? The instinct!

When you are told that you are not who you believe to be, the small chance of such being true makes you feel as if the ground opened beneath your feet, as you were taken into this ruse, trapping you in order for you to accept only its truth. It's like you are invaded in your privacy and it wanted to shape an image different from yourself. Your instinct? Protect yourself, and denying this reality by denying you do not control your own life. To every word your search in your memory images to support what you hear, for a moment you want to believe in the impossible, are these memories? Or are these dreams?

Although the question of belonging to the reality of Rebecca and Mikhael persist, something I knew… I, Rose, live in the present, in this life and I know what I want. Since I become aware of my existence that I always knew. Dreaming every step I want to give, dreaming of each objective I want to achieve. And with the help and support of  Joan, I am living my dream, our dream ... We're just over two months for the fashion show and I want, I need her to be part of this project. We always support each other, she's more than a sister to me. I couldn't see it then, but now I know ... She was in pain and, as always, she was sacrificing herself for us, suffering in silence, but it doesn't have to be that way…

Joan: Hello, Rose!

Rose: Hello, Joan. Hum... Are you ready to continue with the project?!

Joan: Of course!

Rose: I have a lot of ideas and I need you!

Joan looked at me with her eyes shining. To er too, the words of Mikhael now made sense.

Joan: I think we have a lot to talk about! - Shuted the door behind her, indicating garden bench. - I believe that you have a lot of questions. I'm ready to answer them if you want.

Rose: No, please! – She was surprised by my reaction. - I don't need to make peace with the past because that is not my past. I can't believe I'm saying this, but ...

Joan: You can say it! No more fears between us ...

Rose: I like that idea ... What I was about to say was, if you took away my memories, keep them. I want this new opportunity to begin again. I'm Rose, I love animals, sports and to draw. I love to create pieces giving them life with the materials of this world, this era. In a few words this is me. Can you live with that? - Joan smiled nodding to my request. I don't want to live in uncertainty, in doubt. I want only the certainties that I conquest daily! - I have so much to show you, can you go to my house, now?

Joan: Yes, I can!