The Dream's place (S1 Ep.1-8)
After the beach, we went back to school to pick up our backpacks and went home. While doing the homework, I still thought in Joan’s words about the accessories that I do. - "You're natural, have you thought about doing some pieces to sell?" - Joan and her ideas. Although she was just joking, the idea had captivated me. When I closed my eyes I could see a space with my creations. The more I dreamed, the greater became... Fashion shows, photo shoots, catalogues filled with my creations...
With the opening of my eyes, the reality set in. I knew that this would be impossible, so why dream about it?! Because at least this way I have a refuge to my wishes, I have my own space where my reality intersects with my fantasies that I most yearn to reveal. I wasn't as bold and fearless as Joan. To achieve this dream I would have to be the centre of attention and that, to me, is worse than a horror movie. My body freezes and I lose control. This is my greatest fear.
My fears and doubts sometimes were strong enough to make me doubt myself. I bring my designs to life for me because I know what I like. If I was to do some accessories to sell I wouldn't know where to start. It's just another idea of Joan. A stupid idea, I know!
My thoughts on the subject didn’t last long, this week was a fuss! With Joan's birthday near, between lessons, practice, band rehearsal and preparation for the exams, I still found the time to make Joan’s birthday present and join the girls to help with the party’s decoration.
It's getting fantastic, with many details exactly as Joan likes. She has lots of theories and one of them when it comes to parties, it's that the difference is in the details. For Joan, review, two and three times, every detail is not a sacrifice, is commitment. And that's the way to ensure things happen exactly as she idealized. Her birthday party will be “perfect“, in her words!
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